After years of chasing signs, reading every forum thread, and forcing my mind into every mystical practice, I’m left with nothing but vague doubt. I’ve poured time into proving angels, miracles, and hidden realms, yet clarity never arrived. Rather than continue this endless, directionless hunt, I’ll pause and let any genuine truth surface on its own. When something truly real exists, it will break through without my contrivance. Until then I’ll trust what I already know still for now.