I was scrolling through photos online when I saw a picture of my twin flame kissing his girlfriend. My stomach dropped, and for a moment, I felt physically sick. It was a wave of nausea that came out of nowhere, a gut reaction to something I knew was none of my business.
I think the feeling comes from a deep sadness. We’ve never touched, never spoken, never even hugged in this lifetime. There’s a history there that I can’t explain, but in this life, we’re strangers. Seeing him with someone else brings that absence to the surface in a very physical way.
At the same time, I know he deserves to be happy. I don’t feel jealousy, just a kind of hollow ache. It’s strange how the mind and body can react so strongly to something you’ve accepted logically. I also had a strong sense of deja vu with that image, like I’d seen that moment before somewhere, which made the whole experience even more unsettling.
What helps me is focusing on my own path. I remind myself that self-love comes first, and my feelings, however intense, don’t define my worth. I can feel this sadness and still wish him well. It’s a quiet kind of conflict, but one I’m learning to hold with care.
