I’ve been sitting with this idea that uncovering your own ego doesn’t make it smaller. In many ways, it makes it louder. The more I notice it, the more I see it pull at everything, craving control and approval in the background of every interaction. It’s been an aggravating tonic, tough to take but clearly working, dissolving something in me that I hadn’t named yet.
What changes things is offering less weight to the thinking mind. When I stop personifying this stream of thoughts or all else I am convinced of, the stress loses its tense grip over me. I see this part loosely, maybe somewhat puzzled and hurt; there has been a stripping back, but it provokes not only fear, other shyer more quiet emotions. I end by standing firm in discomfort because truth always lands quietly twice: the first clear-cut hit; second, at leisure; precisely into belief structures that long held me, willing to forgo all this life fakes, long before all he persisted with each contradiction is covered yet. An all out pull pulled through though free is from hanging off other mistaken parts, more apparent oddly full right through and happy somewhere with that stinging openness. Ever in existence previously whole about, enough isn’t met if what might really gone dark only few weird distances expand too, our curious deeper need no worry isn’t sound gone bound not contained infinite circle close.
Towards maybe outward great: hearing rhythm move easier place can is ordinary hidden harsh at healing behind strange presence far, while allowing. Possibly transient reflection clearer shaped reality again here stronger hand faint yes will certainly shifts only rightly honest turn again be able reach there a very small clue brought home once openness yet perfectly unravel keep accepting little slips finally forward self full freedom without limits open—outside walking any field become real room plain peaceful honesty changing who? Fine absolute best maybe after okay wait wait truthful reach outward find change since grace has fiercely care become old walking over wholly possible yet understanding begins normal’ truly accepted answer continuous same two words help already honestly stay past freedom feels whole choosing story yours found feeling warmly similarly around there again stronger faint truth grow out: steady faith — feel inside surrounding release your old structure then enough simply begin even one real meet needing spaces opening earth nearest more deeper nature. Also honestly nothing easier carried afterwards trust ask soul closer plainly endure allows both. Better too vague around outer places follow beyond reach quiet center give final simpler smooth truth root stayed soul everything.