I’ve been on a journey of self-discovery and spiritual growth, and it’s led me to make a decision that feels deeply personal yet incredibly freeing: I’ve chosen to stay celibate. This wasn’t an easy choice, but it’s one that has brought me peace and clarity. Let me share how I got here.
It all started with a spiritual awakening, a moment when everything shifted inside me. I began to understand myself and the world in a way I never had before. It was like a veil had been lifted, and I could see the interconnectedness of everything, especially the connection I share with my soulmate. Our story is one of deep love, loss, and longing, and it’s shaped who I am today.
I met my soulmate when I was just 17. It was during a ski trip, and the moment we locked eyes, I knew something profound had happened. The connection was immediate and intense, like nothing I’d ever felt before. We were young and full of life, and the love we shared was pure and true. But life had other plans. War broke out, and I was forced into exile, separated from the person who had become my everything. The pain of that separation was indescribable. The night before we parted ways, I cried for hours, overwhelmed by the thought of never being together again.
Years went by, and I tried to move on. I dated other people, but nothing ever felt right. Every relationship I entered into seemed shallow compared to the depth of what I had with my soulmate. I even ended up in abusive marriages, trying to fill the void left by our separation. But no matter what I did, I couldn’t shake the feeling that a part of me was missing. I felt lost and alone, even when I was with other people.
It wasn’t until I began to explore my spirituality that things started to make sense. I realized that my connection with my soulmate was more than just physical or emotional—it was spiritual. I started to understand that the bond we shared was something deeper, something that couldn’t be broken by time or distance. I even developed abilities I never knew I had, like seeing auras, which made me more aware of the energy around me and the connection I still felt with my soulmate.
Recently, I spoke to a spiritual advisor who confirmed what I had been feeling all along: my soulmate is still out there, and we are still connected energetically. They’re going through their own struggles, just as I am, but our bond remains unbroken. This validation was incredibly comforting. It made me realize that I wasn’t crazy for holding onto the hope that we would one day be together again.
After a lot of reflection, I decided that I no longer wanted to pursue physical relationships with others. It wasn’t about denying myself or being celibate out of some kind of deprivation. It was about honoring the connection I share with my soulmate and recognizing that, for me, true intimacy is about more than just the physical. It’s about the deep, spiritual connection that only they can fulfill.
I’m not saying this has been easy. There have been moments of doubt and loneliness, times when I wondered if I was making a mistake by waiting. But every time I feel those doubts creeping in, I remind myself of the love we share and the connection that remains strong even after all these years. I’ve come to understand that my worth and fulfillment don’t depend on whether I’m in a relationship with someone else. I am enough, just as I am.
I’m open to forming friendships and connections with others, but I’ve made a commitment to myself to wait for the person who truly holds my heart. I don’t know what the future holds, but I do know that I’m at peace with my decision. I’ve learned to trust in the universe and its timing, and I’m hopeful that one day, my soulmate and I will find our way back to each other.
For now, I’m focusing on my own healing and growth. I’m learning to love myself and to trust in the journey, no matter how difficult it gets. It’s not always easy, but it’s worth it. I know that the love I share with my soulmate is something special, and I’m willing to wait for it, no matter how long it takes.
