So, I’ve been thinking a lot about this relationship I was in, and I’m trying to make sense of it all. It’s kind of like when you’re really into someone, and you can’t help but feel drawn to them, even when things feel a little off. That’s how it started with him—there was this spark, this connection that felt so strong. But then, over time, I realized there was this pattern of pushing and pulling. One day he was all in, and the next, it felt like he was pulling away. It was confusing, and honestly, it made me feel really insecure.
I think he’s a good person, genuinely. But there were things he was dealing with that he didn’t really address, and that made it hard for me to feel secure in the relationship. We broke up once in October, and I thought that was it. But then we tried to work things out, and for a little while, it felt like we were on the right track. We talked about our issues, and I thought maybe things could change. But the communication issues kept coming up, and no matter how hard we tried, it just didn’t feel resolved.
I remember feeling so torn because I cared about him so much. I could see the good in him, and I wanted things to work. But at the same time, I couldn’t keep putting myself in a situation where I felt so unsure all the time. It’s hard because I know he didn’t mean to hurt me, but the inconsistency took a toll on me emotionally.
In the end, I had to prioritize myself. It wasn’t easy, but I realized that staying in a relationship where I felt so insecure wasn’t fair to either of us. I hope he’s doing okay, and I really do think he’s a good person. But for me, I need something more stable, something where I feel valued and secure. I’m not perfect, and I know relationships take work, but I also know that some things are just not meant to be.
I guess I’m just trying to learn from all of this. It’s been a tough journey, but I’m hoping that someday I’ll find someone who’s on the same page as me, someone who can give me the kind of love and stability I need. Until then, I’m just taking things one day at a time and trying to focus on my own growth.